I was inspired by: http://1000awesomethings.com. Check out the site. When Neil Pasricha was getting a divorce and his best friend killed himself he had a choice. I’m paraphrasing him here, but it’s twist and turn out of control, or look at the good in life. He talks about his three A’s of Awesome: Attitude, Awareness, Authenticity. I was watching his TedTalk (https://www.ted.com/talks/neil_pasricha_the_3_a_s_of_awesome?language=en#t-685218) and knew I needed to get back on this site. My daughter’s mother and I have a mediation appointment on Friday, March 1, 2019 at 9am. Last Saturday we were suppose to talk with our daughter about the divorce. We ended up not doing it. It was going to be the first thing to start the divorce. Part of me is glad we are doing it this way. It seems more sad to have the official kick off of this end start by telling her. If things don’t go to horribly, then March 2nd, could be a good day and not make telling her the way it starts.
Anyway, the point of this is to get back to writing and blogging and getting this out there. Because, to paraphrase Neil, I can either twist and turn out of control, or I can start living my life and seeing the good in it. I’m scared. I’m hurt. I’m sad. Those can define me, or I can choose to look at those things and see them for what they are. Acknowledge them as real and understandable feelings. I can be fully aware of those being okay to feel. Then, I can get up and start my life… again.
This time with more purpose. With more drive. With having learned how bad things can get, and know I can survive. And I can do it all as a better father.
This, shall hopefully, become a daily thing.
A Better Father 